Seriously, what is with the weather? its been uber cold, uber nice, mega windy and now grey ,rainy and depressing outside all within the same week. whats next? snow? a monsoon? a heatwave? but yeah, the weathers doing nothing to help my mood.
it's a hassle and a half to get out of bed. i just got a hot chocolate from dunkin dougnuts. it was yummy, but now im broke and have to figure out what im making for diner.

( rant rant rant )

So yeah this freaked me the hell out @ 3 a.m., true story ....
http://www.gametrailers.com/video/experience-the-darkside/57808

I have lady gaga's "bad romance" stuck in my head, but thats beside the point.

In other news, ive not had much motivation to write lately. in fact this very blog is due to me forcing myself to type out of well...boredom.
ive been very "Blah". i blame the weather, cause it seems to be as bipolar as i am lately.
Ive been mass applying & going for interviews for a bit now, but still jobless. not gona lie its extremely discouraging and doing absolutely nothing for my mood.
Glee was back on yesterday and it was lulzy so i guess that cheer'd me up for a bit.
I need Glee icons....and MOAR EFFY GIFS....

Speaking of Skins..
http://community.livejournal.com/ohnotheydidnt/41031188.html

LOL WUT?
i mean, srsly?

Also, WTF @ the sudden casting age limit?
Its been my dream to be in my mid 20's and playing 16, and now when the opertunity arises, my dreams are squashed cause im "Too old"?fuck, that gona be anoying to watch .
like seeing someone play you in a made for tv movie.
i Live and breath Sid's life every day....well w/o the accents...the whole Tony thing and ..Cassie<3 being just about the epitome of the "Krazy as fuck, yet ridiclously hawt" girl of my dreams...I cant help but ship them, cause idk... vicariously, if Alt.universe manny (re;sid) could find someone, then surely there is hope for me.
I wonder what channels you have to go through to write for them?
Cause as adamantly against this endevor as i am, i've got a box of jounrals thats something like 3 or 4 seasons worth of material.
I wonder if theres gona be a psuedo Cassie? Or Effy? or a Sid?

wonder if there will be cameos from the old cast, somehow... class trip to london r something?

so um yeah....

SKINS GIFS....





OTP


<3<3

So yea... ( stuff )

my bday is ALARMINGly soon.
like alarmingly soon.
0_0
im so old.
whats new?
effy<3 is awesome. that is fact.
um ah... ugh i had stuff to blog about but, idk im not in the mood, new post tommorrow lee, i promise.
ps.
be online when I NEED U TO BE.

it seems that late sept early october things are ALWAYS so terrible i NEED to distract myself w/ birthday/halloween plans in order to keep myself sane.
that being said, my bdays on a SUNDAY this year. lame i kno. and i understand that, and that evryone likely got class bright and early in the morning so i kno itll we'll probly do a lil something then ill go sit at a bar by my lonesome getting to drunk to stand properly....
BUT
the saturday...
i could celebrate the crap out of it then!
i kinda wanted to go to the city..also kinda wanted to karaoke...
behold Roselle's friend Kathy had the same sentinent thought and is trying to gather people up for Karaoke that same nite and..since she wants the high end disco ball/strobe lite room was urging me to combine our parties...
just wondering though... who'd go?
is melinda doing something? i seem to rememeber agreeing to chill with her if possible...
but *shrug*grumble* *shiftyeyes* idk...*sigh*
to e perfectly honest ... i will be happy so long as im not alone for any reason that whole weekend.
in fact , i may have open crib... in which case...fucking party @ MY place.... just you kno...bring yer own liqs , food, chairs....wifi...OMG if someone can hi-jack me cable for my bday...i HAVE roof acess and im possitve the neighbors have a dish..lol

so yeah...
thinking happier thoughts is getting me through this.... not @ the point were i have to consider how im affording this yet..although ive vowed not to spend a single dime that comes in my possesion. its actually working. i have a lil over 5 bucks as a result of collecting change in the house.its a start.

and yeah, im KINDA sorta writing but..idk... i just CANT write THE psuedo autobiography yet, mostly cause well.... i dont want to pick at old scabs...but the juicier stuffs in the drama.
we'll talk more about it later.